I had a lot to do today, but the email troubled me. The frightened dog I had transported on Thursday to the boarding kennel needed to go back to the vet. I wanted to respond back and say I’d be right there, but couldn’t, I had things to do and as we have all done, I figured it being Saturday someone else would respond. But I couldn’t let go of it, Autumn had been a difficult transport and as happens with certain dogs, I felt a bond with her. However, I was worried and after expressing my regret that I wouldn’t be able to make it that day, I proceeded to preach a list of do’s and don’ts for whomever had agreed to transport her and then found out that no one could transport her until Monday. I knew then my plans were changed, I needed to go get her and take her back to the only home she’s ever known, the vet clinic.
I spoke with another volunteer and found out she was terrified at the kennel, unresponsive to the staff’s best efforts and they were concerned for her, and a small tear in her surgical incision was not healing and needed attention. Fifteen minutes later I’m in the truck and after a quick stop at Pet smart, I’m on my way with a new bigger crate, a new sturdier harness, a dog blanket and treats. I was determined that she would feel safe and contained with me and would have no opportunity to wrench herself loose in a panic to flee.
Autumn was found in the corridor, pregnant almost feral. The feeding station volunteers could not get near her so it was necessary to trap her for her own good before she, like so many others, perished or vanished in the corridor of cruelty. She was saved before her pups were born and so they were saved from a life and probable death in the corridor, but Autumn remains in limbo, safe, but she’s still scared and confused, and she cries. Her tears are not like ours, visible or audible, in fact, she seldom makes a sound, but she weeps with fear in every cower and twist to get away.
She survived without kindness or care, the human hands responsible for her life were cruel and soon tossed her away as if she were a worn cushion or broken lamp, no longer useful or too burdensome to keep. One day she finds herself wandering alone in the oppressive heat, surrounded by debris and garbage, and very soon there will be babies to feed, but she doesn’t even know how to feed herself. She hides where she can, in the tall weeds, under a rotting board, away from the humans and other dogs, coming out when no one is around, sometimes finding food and water, left as a kindness, but she doesn’t know anything about kindness. Before too long she’ll need to make a the den among the garbage bags for the coming puppies, but she growing weaker and in silence she cries without knowing because she doesn’t know how to feel sorry for herself.
Autumn needs a foster now. She needs an understanding heart, routine and stability. She needs the same person to be there in the morning and at night, to show her it’s okay to trust again. She’s learned to trust the vet staff, but she needs something and someone of her own, to focus on her until she and her forever family find each other. I wanted to drive her straight to my house and my sweet husband would have welcomed her, but I have seven ridiculous spoiled dogs and she needs a quiet home with maybe one good-natured older dog to show her that it’s okay to trust and where they keep the treats.
I’m glad Autumn is “home” tonight and I’m grateful she knows the kindness of the staff at Abbott’s Animal Clinic – they so obviously care about her – but she needs a her home. She needs to be able to lay her head on her own bed in perfect peace, softly sighing, as she closes her eyes and dreams without weeping.
Autumn has been adopted. If you are interested in fostering or adopting a Corridor Rescue Dog, please visit their website at http://www.corridorrescue.org/ and fill out a foster or adoption application. You can also email your questions through their website or facebook page. Thank you for helping to save one life at a time.
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